The good & the evil.

Going to church & being in church is like 2 different feeling totally.

For one, the process of 'going' to church is a struggle, a battle between the good and evil. The good would be fighting, trying to push the evil away. "Stop trying to input thoughts or trying to make her oversleep or something! I will not allow that!" says the good. The evil probably have nothing to rebuke because today evil lost the battle. ^^

Being in church is a good feeling. A feeling of having a meal, like a dinner after a hungry day. The feeling of being satisfied. It's the feeling of being renewed which helped the good to win the battle every time. Even if there are people there who looks at me or don't look at me at all, whatever they like to do, I don't really care that much now. Forgiveness, I think not. I guess this could be another form of numbness, not a good sign. :\

Either way, I'm looking forward to being in church tomorrow! I might not like to be there for the people, but for God, I'm more than happy to!