I think I'm a really simple person, I don't think much.
It could be 1) a good point, but sadly it can also be 2) a bad point.

I always thought couples are so cute & innocent and when I get my first boyfriend, I will study with him. We'll hold hands and walk down the street. Eat dinner in a restaurant and hug each other when watching a movie in the cinema.
Wrong.
Couples are not cute and innocent, I have been deceived.

I believe people very easily without questioning their motives behind the words they say.
For one, I didn't even know xxx don't like me until xxx told me about it. Of course xxx would be a trustworthy person so I trust xxx.
But it's such a heartbroken-ing news. Sigh.

I'm 22 & have to go through a situation like as if I'm 12 and in primary 6. What am I? A child? Teenager? I'm a freaking adult and I can watch R21 shows ohmytian!
Why life no leave me alone?
Why must there be people like this in my life?
Why satan no stay in his hell and just leave us all alone?


Most of the time I now just loiter between 1) being a saint and forgive everything and everyone and treat everything is alright. Life will go on and be better. and 2) being a selfish bitch and self-pity myself and tell myself you so ke lian I wish all these didn't happen to you.
Used to be a 10% and 90% scale.
Now it's more of 50-50 or 40-60, so I guess it's an improvement.

Life on earth is ending, can I just have my friend back now? Thanks.