God knows how many times I've said this; trust me, I've read through all my tweets & I realised I said this pretty often last time, hahaha! I was consciously reminding myself that time, & that time, I was happy. :]
Now, not so. I think my unhappiness is preventing God from entering into my life. Whenever I feel depressed, I just let the depression flood me. Even when a tiny bit of me was telling me: Hey there's God, there's grace, let Him help you.
I would tell the voice, I can't feel God. Go away, LOL.
Then the times when God helped me would flashback like some nostalgic moment in movies.
My guitar, a present from 6 lovely people.
I can learn the guitar, which is something so awesome & it has remained my favourite instrument just because I learnt it first & also because I really like the sound of guitar strumming.
The sudden chance of trying out the hand drums.
The chance of being able to play hand drums on Friday nights.
Chance of being able to play guitar on Friday nights.
Chance of ninja-ing keyboard lessons.
Chance of improving my guitar skills.
Chance of learning bass guitar.
Chance of playing bass guitar on Fridays and Saturdays.
Chance of singing on Sundays.
Helping in subtitles for 2012 videos.
Being the first few in video editing for 2012 video recordings.
Like what shi-mu said, some people don't even get chances and there are reasons to why some people can do stuffs and other people can't. I should really really treasure whatever is given to me.
I don't wanna take things for granted anymore.
Sometimes it happens subconsciously & I'll feel so regretful when I realise it happened.
I wanna go to Thailand~ But I can't because I'm not prepared. Sigh.
I'm God's bride. :)
I'm getting married soon.
So I have to start my wedding preparations.
Emotions, what are emotions? If they're here to hold me back, what's the point of them?
Talking about birthdays, my birthday is coming! :D
I realise I don't even care much about you last year because I don't even remember your birthday till you reminded me?! So, how does this even all come about?!
But it's okay, because I'm not dwelling on it anymore. Once in a while, thoughts like these enter my mind & I would start being depressed over them.
Ultimate solution? Find something new to do so that you won't think about it. :D
Hmm, my birthday. Strawberry shortcake! :D
Love love love!
My birthday wish: To not be in this world on my birthday! :D
Dear father in Heaven, can I have that present for my birthday? Please please please? ^^
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